I think I found God back.....

for so long i have been trying to find contentedness through other people.....this new semester made it even worse.....i found an awesome group of friends and i've spent a lot of time with them.... i thought they would make me happy.....and in reality they did.....they are all so awesome and i love them dearly......they invited me to go to church with them and Harah has gotten me to go to wellspring and GIFT every sunday night and praise and worship on wednesday nights.......i've even started to do devotions every morning like i had wanted to do sincethe beginning of this school year...........it was through these friends though that i found what i was really missing.......my hearts one true desire who had been standing there beside me the whole time...just waiting.....with arms wide open....
it was tonight at praise and worship that it actually hit me......i am in love.....but not like i thought i would be.......i'm in love with God......the only one who can truly offer me contentedness and perfect love....the only one who is infallible...always available.....and truly understanding.........
people have been asking me why i am so happy lately....nothing seems to get me down and i didn't know what to tell them..............but i think it's because my heart is happy.....there is nothing i can do about it......
i want to keep this feeling......and i'm going to work hard at doing that....
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Dear God,
i love this feeling that i found in you tonight at praise and worship......it is you that my heart desires. i think i knew it all along but i couldn't get my heart to know it.....i've made the connection now...please....help me not to lose it!!! i want to stay close to you....i want to love you......my heart is content with you........fo so long i have been trying to find it in other people.....i've been trying to find it in human love....i've been trying to find it in all the wrong places........thank you for leading me to you......through everyone i have met this year......and thank you for my friends God.....i know that it isn't them who can calm my soul....but it was through them that i came to you.....and though they aren't perfect, they are pretty awesome...and i love them dearly.........please bless those relationships God......and please help me in my walk with you........i've strayed for quite some time......but i'm back...please keep me here.......I Love You God!!!
thanks for everything!!!

~your servant