Luckily it is just me
wow....i haven't posted in forever.....that is kinda because i forgot how to find this blog *blush* oops but i decided to give it one last effort because i feel like talking but have no one that i really want to talk to......a lot of people i could talk to.....but none that i really want to........i wanna have a heart to heart........with someone who i know isn't too busy right now, isn't still settling into school, isn't doing homework, isn't worried about something personal of their own (at least not something really big), someone who could really listen....there isn't anyone like that around here that i know
so anyways....i decided to come here and pour it out.....
the aquinos (two of my roomies) showed me pictures from their trip back home this summer....WOW!! the places they visted are sooooo gorgeous!! it makes me long to travel even more! i can't wait to begin my journies: honduras, costa rica, spain, australia, mexico (though not oficially in the plans yet)........wow. thinking about all that though....i begin to wonder if all of that is really what God has in store for me......maybe he has different places in mind? or maybe he has different plans all together........they say that if you want to make God laugh tell him your plans........that gets me worried......i want to do this SO bad......i think i should start praying about it.....asking God to reassure my heart or take away the desire if it isn't meant to be....that sounds like a good idea......why didn't i think of that sooner.....**sigh**
there is another thing that i need to pray about.....i've felt really lonely lately....i've been trying to fill that void with other people....and it just isn't working out....i miss having someone special...you know....a significant other but i've stopped trying to search for that "significant other" and instead i'm trying to make friends to give me people to do things with.....people to hang out with.....i know that God will send the right guy at the right time and so i am trying to be content with that knowledge.....but i guess that doesn't quiet the yearning for that other someone.............maybe God is calling me to himself.......i know i haven't been the best at my relationship with him.....i've had that pointed out to me in several different ways over the past couple of weeks.....i've gotton a lot better at it.......since being at school i have felt God in a way i never have before.....it's awesome! but still in a way i am avoiding it....i'm avoiding totally commiting myself.....i need to work on that............see i don't think i'm ready for that someone special yet....and that is what God is trying to point out to me....i have other matters to settle first....especially matters with him.........i guess that should be my priority..... but it would still be nice to have someone to have a nice heart to heart with..........anyone up for coffee??
so anyways....i decided to come here and pour it out.....
the aquinos (two of my roomies) showed me pictures from their trip back home this summer....WOW!! the places they visted are sooooo gorgeous!! it makes me long to travel even more! i can't wait to begin my journies: honduras, costa rica, spain, australia, mexico (though not oficially in the plans yet)........wow. thinking about all that though....i begin to wonder if all of that is really what God has in store for me......maybe he has different places in mind? or maybe he has different plans all together........they say that if you want to make God laugh tell him your plans........that gets me worried......i want to do this SO bad......i think i should start praying about it.....asking God to reassure my heart or take away the desire if it isn't meant to be....that sounds like a good idea......why didn't i think of that sooner.....**sigh**
there is another thing that i need to pray about.....i've felt really lonely lately....i've been trying to fill that void with other people....and it just isn't working out....i miss having someone special...you know....a significant other but i've stopped trying to search for that "significant other" and instead i'm trying to make friends to give me people to do things with.....people to hang out with.....i know that God will send the right guy at the right time and so i am trying to be content with that knowledge.....but i guess that doesn't quiet the yearning for that other someone.............maybe God is calling me to himself.......i know i haven't been the best at my relationship with him.....i've had that pointed out to me in several different ways over the past couple of weeks.....i've gotton a lot better at it.......since being at school i have felt God in a way i never have before.....it's awesome! but still in a way i am avoiding it....i'm avoiding totally commiting myself.....i need to work on that............see i don't think i'm ready for that someone special yet....and that is what God is trying to point out to me....i have other matters to settle first....especially matters with him.........i guess that should be my priority..... but it would still be nice to have someone to have a nice heart to heart with..........anyone up for coffee??
posted by Sarah @ 12:06 AM
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