Shhhhhhh....

the other night i was looking through some quotes that i wrote out.....one of them talked about how silence hurt more than harsh words ("spiteful words hurt your feelings but silence breaks your heart")..........why is that true?? is it because words that are spoken can be forgiven and forgot....but if someone never says anything...there is nothing to forgive? or is it because we know that, that person is so hurt/disappointed/frustrated with us that they can't even put it into words themselves? but it doesn't always have to be that....what about when we go to friends for help or comfort.....but all they offer is silence.....yet another quote i have says "we remember not the words of our enemies but the silence of our friends"....... i talked to kk about it and neither of us could put it into words.......silence.....funny....

what is it about silence?

He will provide

played volleyball last night until my writsts turned black and blu......it was a joy......hope to do it again soon.

i just realized something......God provides......i mean i knew it before but i've seen another example.........when i knew that brielle was going to be here at dordt with me for a semester i was overjoyed.....i was like hey...she can introduce me to people and i'll make friends......and everything will be cool......but then when it really hit me that she was leaving i was devestated (not truly but i was sad)....because yes i had met people through her but still....those people are her friends....not mine....at least not yet....maybe one day they will be........but i hadn't found my place yet like i had hoped to before she left.......so i was thinking...oh great...a semester of staying in my room with nothing to do but homework........but when i got back to school that was totally not the case.....the ppl i had started to get to know last semester suddenly seemed to pop up and invite me to hang out........maybe it helped because i now have spanish with some of them but still........i've found this awesome group of friends after all........no more lonely nights locked in my room..........
sorry if you dont see it like i do.....i guess it is kinda personal....but...it just hit me....and i thought i should give a shout out of thanks to God....

What will we ruin next

It Made Me Think...

today in philosophy we talked about silence....no actually we talked about how the power of words have been distorted to mean so little. so often words are used to make promises that can't be kept. people choose words only so that they get what they want. who knows if it is the truth...words can't be said without their true intent being questioned. i think this is why i want a job through which i can show God's love instead of speaking about it. i mean, how do you tell a child who comes from a broken home that God is wonderful and loving and caring. like they would believe you. instead, they have to be shown the love of God through your actions.
words hardly mean anything these days.